8/3

Okay so my jogging fizzled I won't lie. Since I started the calorieking diet I've not really been exercising and here's why. On their program you have to reach a certain number by the end of the day with all of your food calories and your exercise calories taken into account. My number is 1300. If I eat my 1300 and then workout and burn off 150 calories, then I'm technically supposed to consume 150 more calories because if not my number at the end of the day would be 1150, which in their program is too low. So, I've kinda given up exercising to see if this works or not. I'm just going to consume my 1300 calories a day and not exercise and see if I lose weight.

I figured up and on average I was eating less than 1000 calories a day and I was also working out and gaining about 150 calories from working out so really my number at the end of the day was around 850 which is quite low. I think I may have been consuming too few calories and therefore not losing anything. That is my current thought. We will see how this new 1300 calorie plan goes.

I haven't weighed myself in a few days. I said I wasn't going to weigh myself til Wednesday (which is the day I weigh in for record on calorieking). I've done pretty good with sticking to the plan. Friday I went a little off because we had some barbeque for dinner, but other than that I've been right on my 1300 calorie goal. I so desperately want to weigh myself right now. I'm a habitual weigher. I've caught myself weighing at least three times in one day. I know this is horrible. Its just a habit I have.

I will maintain that I do feel so much better eating healthier and not consuming so many calories like in the past. I feel better for sure! Now if I could only lose some weight, that would make me feel even better.

I weighed myself on Friday and I was at 156 which means from Friday July 24 to Friday July 31 I gained 1.8 pounds. We did splurge and have sour cream chicken enchiladas on that Tuesday, so maybe that had something to do with it. Who knows. I'm just really ready to lose this darn weight. I feel like I've been battling this all summer and have achieved nothing. I'm crossing my fingers that this calorieking thing works.

12 more days

Well I've been successful so far on my two mile jogs. I completed it on Monday, yesterday around 9:30am, and this morning at 6:30am. I'm feeling good but very very sore. My thighs are on fire. I always heard that if you exercise when you are sore its supposed to help get rid of your soreness faster, but I don't think that is true at all.

As for food...........yesterday we went to breakfast and I had two eggs over medium, hash browns, and two slices of dry wheat toast. For lunch we were supposed to go to Pappa's Burgers in Ft. Worth but it was very busy when we got there so we decided to go to Uncle Julio's instead. I had two sour cream chicken enchiladas (hey I haven't had those in a looooooooong time and Uncle Julios is amazing) a little bit of mexican rice and a little bit of refried beans......and one flour tortilla. I had some chips and salsa but not nearly as much as I would normally consume. I did not have a sangria or a margarita (I would have taken either in a heartbeat!).

Dinner was a turkey sandwich and steamed squash. The only alcoholic beverage I had was a low calorie margarita.

All in all I think I did pretty darn good. I exercised yesterday so that should help also.

I joined the calorieking.com club that they offer. I'm excited about it. According to my weight (I rounded to 155 for an even number even though I'm really 154.2 but who's counting) and my age and what weight I want to be at, I am supposed to eat 1300 calories a day. I really don't know how many calories I usually consume in a day but I don't think it is more than 1300 honestly. I bet it is pretty darn close.

Anyway for breakfast today I'm going to have 1/2 cup of egg beaters with 1 wedge of laughing cow cheese nuked in the microwave on a 100 calorie English muffin. That is roughly 195 calories right there.

Lunch will be a sandwich and some steamed veggies I'm sure. If I want a snack I'm going to have an apple with a 60 calorie size serving of light n' fit yogurt. Dinner will probably be a lean cuisine (I don't cook dinner on Wednesday nights). I'll probably have a couple alcoholic drinks averaging 100 calories each. Plus my jogging burns off around 185 calories so that should help some too.

Alright off to fix breakfast and hang out with the kiddo.

13 days left

Alright here's the skinny. I did not get up at 6am and go for my almost two mile jog. I did however go for my almost two mile jog around 1pm this afternoon so i'm still counting it. I didn't do as bad as I thought I would. I jogged most of it, but walked some here and there. I survived. Haha victory is mine. Not only did I do the jog, my husband and I went for a walk around 5pm this afternoon (about a mile and a half) at the park. The weather has been fantastic today. Overcast with some rain showers here and there and the temperature has been around 80 so we took advantage of it.

Breakfast I had the egg beaters and laughing cow cheese concoction on a low calorie english muffin. Lunch consisted of a chicken pesto sandwich from Which Wich (not sure how many calories were in that!). I only had the sandwich though! Dinner was some Tyson chicken nuggets, steamed red potatoes, and steamed asparagus. Yum-o! I'm channeling Rachael Ray apparently.

Tomorrow I will be going for my MORNING jog for sure! I hope to get some additional exercise in there somewhere along the way as well.

I have all the supplies I need now to make the low calorie margaritas from hungry girl. Don't think I'll try those out tonight though. I also picked up some stuff to make some low calorie brownie-like muffins also from Hungry Girl. Hope those are as yummy as she made them out to be.

I know that tomorrow I'm going to go off plan a little. My hubby is off work and we are going to go to breakfast...............something we haven't done in a long long time. And for lunch we are wanting to try out this burger place in Fort Worth that supposedly has some to die for burgers. I don't think I'll be eating any fries with my burger though. Dinner will probably be an ice cube to make up for breakfast and lunch lol.

Til tomorrow.

7/26

Friday I weighed myself and my weight was 154.2 which means I only lost .6 lbs but at least I didn't gain I guess. Yes I was hoping for a bigger loss, but at least I lost something.

Over the weekend we went out of town to see my parents. My mom made a millionaire pie (yes a damn millionaire pie!) and I had a slice yesterday and one today. I didn't do horribly; i could have done a lot worse thats for sure. I didn't do great either though.

Tomorrow is D day..............damn I've really gotta get up and go for a jog day. I keep telling myself that it is only 15 days. 15 days seems manageable to me. I have to remind myself in the morning (and every morning I'm sure) why I'm doing this.................to look hot of course. But seriously I really gotta lose this damn weight. I can't afford a tummy tuck so I guess I gotta do it the old fashioned way. Fuck!

Tomorrow I am also back on plan. I did find a few helpful and interesting recipes for some low calorie foods from hungry-girl.com I'm going to try out the egg beaters with laughing cow cheese mixture that sounds really good. I'm also going to try out some low calorie margarita recipes. Yay! I haven't had a margarita in SO LONG. I also picked up some boca burgers. I used to eat those quite a bit, but apparently I forgot all about them. I'm planning on having one on a 100 calorie English muffin with a little light mayo or mustard.

I'm still loving my steamed veggies. Thank God for Zip n' steam bags. Those are my absolute favorite things on this planet. Chicken is amazing cooked in them. Love em!

Alright, til tomorrow!

7/23

I've done very well on my diet today even though I started out very frustrated. I still stuck to it. Breakfast was a hard boiled egg, lunch homemade tuna salad sandwich with 100 calorie bag of popcorn, dinner stir fry chicken with brown rice. I've had one glass of wine and I plan on having a full fledged crown and coke later on. I haven't had one of those in quite a while, so I'm going to tonight. I also did my walk away the pounds dvd.

This weekend we are going to my parents. I'm hoping that the food temptations will not be super strong; i know my mom will probably bake at least one dessert if not two.

I came up with an idea to increase my cardio and I'm going to go ahead and publish it. If I actually write it out, then I have a higher chance of following through with it. My plan is for the next three weeks to get up around 6 give or take a snooze or two and go for a walk/jog around my neighborhood every morning, Monday through Friday. In addition, I will also continue doing my walk away the pounds dvd during the day if possible. I've got to get this weight off and I really think adding the extra exercise will definitely help. So there it is. Starting on Monday I'm going for a walk/jog in the morning. P.S. I'm not at all a morning person!

7/23 (frustrated)

I weighed myself this morning and I have gained a pound since last Friday. Yes I realize today is Thursday and not Friday, but I've done really good this week (with the exception of my little Snickers splurge).

I don't know what to do. I'm a firm believer in eating right and exercising and viola the weight will come off. But its not coming off, that's the problem. I haven't gotten to exercise as much this week as I normally do. And I don't think my thirty minutes of walking/jogging is enough exercise. I really need to burn more calories than what I'm doing. I need to exercise more, but unfortunately at this point I can't. I have a ten month old at home so I can't really go to the gym. Yes gyms have babysitting, but I don't want him to be exposed to that many kids and that many germs as young as he is. Plus he's been quite cranky lately, so I don't want to have to go all the way to the gym only to be there for ten minutes and have to leave because my child is cranky. When school starts I've got to force myself to go after school at least two times a week. I'd really love to go three, but I'm going to start out with two. At this point I'm not sure if I'm going to reach my goal of pre baby weight by Brett's first birthday and that is really upsetting to me.

I don't want to try a fad diet because we all know how those work out. I have been thinking about the possibility of diet pills. I just don't know what to do. I feel so defeated. I'm doing so good on my diet. I don't snack, I don't eat chocolate, I do sooo good. I don't eat fast food except for Subway or Boston Market. I used to eat fast food all the time! I hate this feeling.

diet 7/21

Today I went a little off plan.

I started out strong, hard boiled egg for breakfast. For lunch I met my husband at Mimi's Cafe. There I had a house salad with ranch on the side and the lunch portion of the petit citrus salmon with some kind of greens and strawberries tossed in a balsalmic dressing of some sort. I was less than impressed with my salmon. It was a very small portion and it just wasn't as flavorful as I was hoping/expecting.

The thing that really got me off plan was this..........my child. Ever since he turned 10 months old (last Saturday) he's been a royal terror. Friday he cried nonstop, Saturday he was fussy, Sunday he was somewhat normal, yesterday he was fussy in the afternoon, and well today.......today he was a complete fuss bucket! He is usually great out in public, but when we were at the restaurant he cried and fussed and pouted until someone held him. This little incident sent me running for comfort, comfort from a long lost friend.................chocolate. I went to Target after lunch and thought of all the wonderful things I could sink my teeth into. I even thought about going to Corner Bakery (which is right next door) for a chocolate baby bundt cake. In the end I chose a Snicker's candy bar. No, this wasn't the best choice I probably could have made, but it was a lot better than some of the other thoughts running through my head. So, I ate every bite of that candy bar and enjoyed it to the fullest. I did indeed feel quite a bit better afterward. I don't even think I felt guilty about it.

Dinner consisted of grilled broccoli and mushrooms along with 2 very small very petite bacon-wrapped filets. Did I necessarily need 2 filets..........no. I was hungry. Lunch wasn't very satisfying. I also consumed 2 Miller Chills...................thus far. I'm sure I may have another one later on or a cranberry juice with blueberry vodka. We shall see.

All in all I don't think I did too horribly on my diet today. I did not work out at all, so that will probably hinder me more than my food choices did. Tomorrow should be a regular day and I should be able to exercise. I'm not too worried about it at this point. I've got Wednesday and Thursday to do really good (I weigh myself for record on Friday mornings).